Why do christians listen to such gay music

Christmas came. I am a happy lady with a Christmas brooch that has a snowman on it. I have a lot of really neat stuff in the works.

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New merch is coming! My book is at the printers! The beautiful thing about being home for this extended period of time is the grounding. Two nights ago, I was awake at 3am, as usual, and was overwhelmed with writing something on my piano. I played for near a half hour straight, and let God do what needed to be done.

I rarely feel like that. As a vessel. God is with me regardless. I wrote this in one fluid sitting. I grew up in a strict Pentecostal home. My parents would speak in tongues and were devout in prayer and we were at church times a week. A friend brought me to an Evangelical church in high school, known as Mars Hill, where I fell in love with the music and the bands that played on Sunday evening.

The pastor was funny, charismatic, and made the bible seem simple. I was sad that my gay friends were going to hell, but the pastor said that I could still be friends with them. When I fell in love with my first girlfriend, I recognized my sin immediately. She was also Christian.

I remember making a conscious effort to accept my sin. My recognition allowed me to repent daily. I prayed often, apologizing to God, but accepting that this is who I had always been and always would be. I still went to Mars Hill. I was never hated on, never felt rudeness from the community, but the sermons were difficult to hear.

I cried every Sunday for nearly a year in high school and afterwards. In apology to God, with guilt, with shame. I was out and proud to the world, but I had been battling Christian rhetoric inside of me for a long time. After suffering with my diagnosed bipolarity for awhile, a suicide attempt, and the war within my head and heart, something had to change.

I think it was when I opened the bible. But I think it really happened in prayer. Suddenly, the bible texts used against gay marriage seemed really wretched. That, when in context, were ludicrous and far-reaching. And mean!